The Worlds of Function, Being, and Will Revisited

Function

What is it that lifts me out of the ordinary and into a higher level of Being; one where conscious choice and discernment are possible despite external circumstances?

I am aware of distinct worlds that push against one another, yet when held before me through a distinct Presence become integral polarities like two ends of a stick. I feel the temptation of the passivity of my functions like an incessant pull of desires and reactions as I decide to act intentionally. Without that decision or aim, there is nothing but my body, my likes and dislikes, and my distractions.

That world of function is always vying for my attention. It is the material aspect of life where attachment abounds. My identity is wrapped up in this world, trying to make meaning of who I am and where I belong. It is always about me. Without a developed attention and the means to enter a more meaningful life that is free of this identity, I travel down a stream that I cannot escape.

I may try to work from ordinary capacities, thinking that I am emancipating myself, but until I discover the doorway of Presence, I am stuck in the unending turmoil of the functional world. This artificial effort gets in the way. 

Only dogged efforts of a certain quality allow me to enter a current that connects me to an Intelligence of which I am always a part. It’s an Intelligence of which we are all a part but the weight of my ego passively creates obstacles. To be a part of this current. I cannot try to escape the functional world. I must be a part of it too as if it were one end of the stick.

The first line of order is to develop an awareness that opens me to another world. Trying to use attention with the thinking mind is only rearranging the deck chairs on a sinking ship. What is required is expanded awareness which is beyond the capacity of my thinking brain and its efforts to focus. Expanded awareness requires all of me; my body, my feelings, and my thoughts together to form a new kind of perception. This Presence lifts me out of the confines of any singular dominating aspect of myself. 

From this Presence, I see my attachments as reality. They are falsehoods I hold to be true and I can see it.

My acceptance of these attachments means I must observe them, hold them in front of me and have compassion and understanding.  This is the other end of the stick. How much I can bear determines my ability to be in the middle holding both ends.

Will

The world of Will is an active force in my capacity to decide and choose. It requires a vehicle through which to act with the passive force of the functional world. It is not my will deciding what to do or something we call willpower. It is a force coming through me that I must implement through my body, my feelings, and my thoughts. It must be animated by my actions, so quite often it’s an aborted mission if I cannot carry out the aim. 

I am not some blind instrument of a Divine Will either. I must interact with the world of will from my own intention and my ability to implement that aim. In order to be that instrument, I must act consciously from my own initiative.

The idea of will is truly an illusion when I carry out actions under the influence of my own conditioning and preferences. This is not the world of Will coming through but simply my patterns carrying out desires of my own egoism. This keeps me deeply embedded in the world of function operating under the guise of free will.

“ ‘I’ is what we call our Will and believe to be the agent of all our acts. In this sense, ‘I’ is an illusion and we deceive ourselves. Every vagrant impulse, every chance desire, every passing feeling announces itself under the guise of ‘I’”. J. G. Bennett

Without any integration of I’s, I have no vehicle for this higher world to enter. There is no instrument to implement the initiative. As long as I am identified, I will search for Will in the world of function.

The world of Will feels unreachable and is misunderstood. I must find this integration so that I can know both ends of the stick, both the affirming and denying force in order for me to be the instrument of Divine Will. I must know the active and the passive, being of this world but not in this world. This comes through the world of Being.

Being

Like a mountain slowly forming as tectonic plates collide, Being is developed by what I can bear. My attention holds the contradiction within me through presence not focus. I am lifted out of the ordinary through my integrated essence; something that has coalesced over the years. In this way, I am in contact with both ends of the stick.

The world of Being is the reconciling force of the passive force of my functions and the active force of Will.

As my essence strengthens through the consolidation of the warring facets within me, I facilitate a higher gradation of energy that can see and empathize. A new kind of struggle emerges between my higher self and my lower nature. It is no longer about me but actually choosing from conscience and implementing an action. In the world of Being it is possible to choose right action which in turn keeps me connected to the Infinite Reality of Oneness.

When I can discern and choose outside of the myopic lens of self, I bridge gaps, creating a secondary vehicle for a concentration of higher energies to enter. The formation of that body is the house of Being where consciousness touches the unity and diversity of all things. There is permanence in my work. The world of Will is more accessible. I am able to choose.

In the world of Being, I can truly repair the past by stepping outside of conditioning and choosing to do something differently; something that is inline with Will. As those choices are made, the conditioning is dismantled; the secondary body solidified, and I prepare the future through conscious decisions emitting from conscience. My work is no longer as it used to be. I can more easily connect to a higher source through action in the material world. I am connected to both God and others.

It is only through action and manifestation that I know I am under the influence of a greater concentration of higher energies. I ride a new current that keeps contact with both ends of the stick in acceptance and grace. There are fewer disruptions as if I am freed from certain laws that once hindered my abilities.

I am loosened from the illusion of “I” and lifted out of the ordinary.